sometimes, even the modern gal needs to blow some steam
hey tumblr, how have you been? i’ve definitely neglected you lately.
not much new to report. i pretty much hate my job right now, but that comes and goes. i’m making plans to do something different but that won’t come to fruition for a long time.
the dog keeps getting sick because she keeps eating things she shouldn’t. she eats things she shouldn’t to try to ease her stomach which is upset from eating things she shouldn’t. it’s a vicious cycle.
i’m really, really, really tired right now too.
that is all.
was i expecting too much when i hoped he’d at least ask me what i wanted to do to celebrate? i wanted a small gathering with my new friends on sunday, but i really don’t want to plan my own party. will i even get a cake? something to put a candle in?
i wish this birthday would just go away.
why all of a sudden do we seem so incompatable? was it always this way?
two and a half days until vacation; ten and a half days until i take possession of my new home.
can’t come soon enough.
i’m starting to wonder if i made a mistake. a very, very large one.
kashi pizza. polka dot riesling. ben & jerry’s. blog. online house hunting. the dog. reading both books and magazines. hgtv. not traveling.
it just hit me the other day and unlike some of my fleeting funks that last only minutes, this one has gotten worse. i can’t shake it because i’m not really sure why it’s here. my suspicion is that i’m crazy homesick for a home that doesn’t exist right now. i have several places to live, but none of them are my own space. and i keep getting shuffled out of the way.
the worst part is, now is a time of pomp and circumstance and i have to be sweet and funny and put on a smile. all i really want to do is to crawl into a hole away from everyone else. and have someone care.
